What I’ve been up to lately…
It’s been a while since I wrote a personal update. As a matter of fact, my last update was October 3rd! How is that even possible? It’s probably because I’m on the struggle bus mentally and physically, a bit too. I actually ended up in physical therapy at the beginning of the year because my back is killing me, and so was the bill after I received it.
I’m not even sure where to begin! At the end of last October, I visited my family in Germany. After my return, I started working at the ski resort again. I mentioned that in my blog post, where I wrote about how to transition from Christmas decor to winter decor. All the icicles and snowy houses got taken down after Easter, and my work at the ski resort came to an end. I’m still undecided if I’ll work there during the green season.
I’m so ready for spring and summer! And last week felt like we jumped right into summer, and then this week was nighttime winter temps again. I can’t stand that!
Yard work
Speaking of the nicer weather. We have been doing a lot of yard work in the warmer temps because we were so sick of not being able to grow grass in our tiny yard. We’ve lived in this house for 26 years and failed every single year. Even if we managed to somewhat succeed by the time late summer rolled around with a drought, we were done again.
So by the end of last summer, we decided to take out the grass in spring and add pea gravel. We had also considered turf, but that is way too expensive.
Just look at this hot mess! This is not how I like my yard to look.

Many plants aren’t doing that well either after another harsh winter. Adding all that mulch is always so much work, too. I bought about 75 bags of mulch at Lowe’s.

Before starting the big project of removing the grass, I pressure-washed the paver patio, which is always satisfying. But it creates so much dirt and mud, which is why this needed to get done first.

During the process of adding fresh sand to the pavers, I decided to add polymeric sand to the stairs leading out from the patio doors. Regular sand tends to wash out through the cracks. Unfortunately, the ivory sand ended up being the wrong color and looked awful! I panicked a bit! So I scraped the top layer off, bought another expensive small bag in camel brown. It looked much better. Now I wish I had done the entire patio. I might still do it in sections while the new play sand is loose.

Here you can see how much better the camel brown looks. I just wish it wouldn’t make the pavers so hazy. I’m hoping that’ll go away yet.

Let’s talk about the other side of the patio, where we have a leaning wall with the dying bamboo. So far, we have not been able to fix it, even though we tried our hardest. I think we might just have to live with it unless it falls over.

Since we were already making a mess of everything, we decided to tackle the drainage issue too, which is probably what caused the wall to lean in the first place.

To remove the grass, we wanted to rent a sod cutter, but then my husband just decided to do it by hand since we didn’t have all that much grass and mostly dirt.

We had a very important supervisor overseeing the whole operation. Frank has come such a long way, and we love him so much. He used to be so scared of just seeing us looking at him through the window. Now he comes running when he hears our voices, wags his tail like a dog, and rolls over on his back to get some belly rubs. He also loves sleeping in bed with either my son or me. I wish he could tell us his life’s story because I can feel that he has been through so much.

All the rock walls had to be redone to make sure the weed barrier fabric went behind the walls so the dirt can’t wash onto the new gravel. Laying that fabric smoothly was another challenge for me. So far, only half of the yard is done. But at least we get to walk on fabric instead of mud.

While my husband was working on some of the walls with the heavier rocks, I installed some new hard-wired path lights. We only had plastic hardwired lights, and they were falling apart. You can see one of them in the photo above, under the lilac bush. Frank’s girlfriend is sitting on the landscaping fabric. The cats love it.
Frank’s girlfriend is Pixie (that was the name I gave her), though my husband insists on calling her Pretty, and honestly, that name has stuck with most people, too. She’s still mostly feral and refuses to come inside, no matter what, even during the brutal cold this winter. I’ve seen her come close to Frank’s cat door and look through the window. She has her heated outdoor houses scattered around the yard, and apparently, that suits her just fine. She does love watching us from a distance, though, and she has clearly chosen my husband as her favorite, which he absolutely loves, since all the other cats have firmly chosen me.
(She looks a lot like Jeff, and more about him later!)
But back to the gravel…
We want to add half-inch Maryland pea gravel, which was almost out of stock, so I took a photo of the 3/4 Maryland river gravel, which has the same color.
We will also add gravel pavers under the pea gravel in areas of heavy foot traffic to keep the stone in place and prevent shifting.

I know this was a lot of rambling and odd, messy photos, but that sums up this project, which is a bit overwhelming and not great for my back. I certainly don’t have money for more physical therapy.
Cats
Around Thanksgiving, I found a home for Jeff. His name is Yuri now. I talked about him in detail in my last post. I was so, so happy because he is now living with a friend of mine and has an amazing home. He is such a special cat.

Maya is hanging in there. I can’t believe she is still alive two years after her small-cell lymphoma diagnosis. She is skinny and feels frail, but remains her bossy self who follows me around all day. She hates it when I’m in the bedroom with Frank and will scratch at the door like a maniac.

Walter is still on Prozac because he is such a nervous mess. Unfortunately, I don’t see it helping him much. He is still ripping out his fur and attacking Willy whenever he can.
Willy is doing well, but is getting tortured by Walter. He’ll growl at him the minute he spots Walter.

Speaking of all the kitties, I bought supplies to make them a macrame teepee and a macrame tent. You might say, “Hey, those two are the same,” but I say nope. I hope my plans will work out. Fingers crossed. Here are two teepee examples. I think I’ll make mine less intricate so it’s easier to make.
These cats have morphed into my babies more than ever now that my kids are adults. I’m definitely not complaining.
Speaking of my kids…
My daughter also changed her major from legal studies to forensic chemistry, and she’s doing great, but the workload is intense. She wanted to switch again, but was talked into keeping that major by an advisor. So let’s see… She thinks she definitely wants to be in forensics, and that is the best way to get to that career.
My son is still trying to navigate life after college, and there is not much more to say about that.
Random musings
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I said at the beginning that I’m on the struggle bus mentally and physically. GET THIS LOAD OF BS!!! In March, I found out that images of me are being used on a dating website to catfish older folks. Yup, you heard that right. I don’t even want to mention what website it is, but it’s a complete scam. They were taken from two Facebook posts of mine that mistakenly weren’t set to private. My husband was cut out of some of the images. Make sure yours are all set to private! Have you seen “Hey Beautiful – Anatomy of a Romance Scam” on Hulu? You should watch it because it’s similar to that and makes me sick. Stuff like that makes me definitely not want to be on any social media.
On top of all that, I’m also dealing with premenopause, but I refuse to chalk the feeling of doom up to that. I know that can be part of it, but everything that is happening right now and worrying about the future is mostly what is causing my negative feelings. This current climate is not allowing for a normal life in peace. I just want to go back to the way things used to be, where everyone can live in peace, no matter what they look like or where they come from. I felt the effects of this while working at the ski resort when people didn’t like me asking “where are you from” when I detected an accent. The climate is so off. And that’s what I used to like about working there and meeting all kinds of people. It’s not the same anymore, and it has nothing to do with my menopause struggles.
I’d love to hear from you and see how you are doing.
Tschüß,




Thanks for posting! I was wondering what you and the cats might be doing. Your yard projects sound interesting – keep us updated!
Thanks, BJ, I will definitely do that. I’m a bit worried that I’ll regret not having any grass 😉 but I’m pretty sure that I will love it once all the plants are growing. I will have a before-and-after blog post for sure.
Hi Julia- I feel your pain. So much has changed in the world- like you, I wish for those better days that we used to have. I would be so mad about the scam sight using your photos. I am ready to close all my social media since so much shared is fake and increasing every day. I hope you can get the scam site to remove your photos. Take care- enjoy getting your backyard in shape.
Hi Julia,
I certainly feel like I know you. I’ve been reading your blogs ever since you posted one about your cat enclosure and tunnels for cats in your backyard. We’ve had Maine Coon cats for the last 50 years and always wanted to build something like that. However, we built a garden railroad in the yard instead. I feel like I’ve watched your kids grow up by seeing you redecorate their rooms. Mine are much older. Our son lives in Seattle with his wife and our 3 grandchildren. Our daughter is single and lives with us.
I’ve been depressed lately too, not only about the war and the state of this country, but also because we need to sell our 150 year old cottage on Lake Michigan which has been in my family since 1923. We used to be “summer people” here but 10 years ago we winterized itf and moved up here full time. It simply is not set up for our “drooling years” (I’ll be 80 in September) with very narrow doorways and itty-bitty rooms. Walkers and wheelchairs simply don’t fit here. My husband has trouble walking. We need a newer “open concept” house with bigger rooms for this next phase of life. Unfortunately, we need to sell the cottage in order to buy a new house.
I hope you resolve your scam incident soon.
Oh, my goodness, Pam. Giant hugs! Selling that cottage will be so hard. But you’re so smart to do it anyway, given the situation. I’m sending you best wishes for finding a new owner who loves the cottage as much as you do.
I so agree
Oh Pam, I’m so sorry that you have to sell. I wish your kids could keep it in the family. I totally understand that it is hard for you.
I’ve been trying to get my parents in Germany to sell their home, even though it breaks my heart. But I’m so scared that they could fall down the stairs. My dad just turned 89, and my mom is 86. They are struggling but don’t want to leave. And my brother and sister-in-law can only do so much. I feel so guilty for being so far away. Maybe it would cheer you up to finally have a catio in your new place?
And yes, the state of this country is so depressing. I know the right thing would be to move to a different country again, but my kids don’t want to leave, and I’m not leaving without them. I just can’t. It was so great to hear from you!
Hello! Thank you so much for the update—and for being open about the harder parts of life lately. It’s a good reminder that many of us are also having a tough 2026.
And on a lighter note, thank you for sharing that link to the cat ladder. I sent it to a friend who, like you, helps socialize and care for her neighborhood’s feral cats. I’m sure she’ll be just as charmed as I was by the cat ladders of Germany!
Oh I hope your friend likes the ladder, Corrie. It was so easy to build. Frank’s girlfriend could come inside, too, and I’ve seen her look through the window several times when she follows him. But she’s just too scared. She likes our company from a distance.
It is so important for all of us who are struggling with 2026 to have a community so we don’t feel alone.
Julia, thanks for the update!
🙂 thanks